2009

I have lots to write, but I am lazy.

hmm...let's see, what I did during the holiday?
Movie, movie, movie, my computer got too much movie for me to finish, I thought can complete all of them in this month, but now not even 50% I managed to watch.
Also busy with Christmas Events.
Then hang out with almost the same people..haha..
hmm...nothing much..

Oh, or maybe I should ask what happened or what I did for the whole year of 2009.
This year, is special for me, is a year with some ups and many many downs.
Yea, every one do have their ups and downs for this year, nothing special.
But for me, it is relatively special as before that, I lived a 'dull' life, no big things happen, no drama, no rumors, no betrayer, no breaking apart, no harassment....
The 'dull' life is actually a peaceful life for me, I hate dramas, hate all that I mentioned above.
But, I did learned a lot if I were to see it from the bright side.

According to time,

The Fake Feeling.
The real but unaware feeling.
The betrayer.
The lesson of trust.

The 1 day camp.
The unaware falling in.
The 1st msg.
The practice.
The sports.
The strong feel.
The 1st tp.
The 2nd tp.
The burning heart.
The confession.
The transition.
The success.
The mistakes.
The total failure.
The transition.
The Obsession.
The slowly leaving God.
The starting of the bad news.
The path of finding the answer.
The worst day ever.
The pain.
The pictures.
The final decision.
The healing.
The distance....

The harassment by a psycho.
The dramas.

These are just part of my 2009 but greatly affects me.
90% of it are something bad.
Some of them are still unsolved and they are no ways I can solve it too.
They can only be slowly diluted in the river of time.

And the biggest problem, which remain till now, is my relationship with God.
Is a spiritual war.
Lord, please let me win over the war.

No matter what, Life goes on and another year is waiting ahead of us.
How will be the year 2010?
No one knows.
But we will write it ourselves.