http://themetapicture.com/how-to-interact-with-the-introverted/
I guess this describes me quite well.
Social is Exhausting.
"l'd better get home and read some books." =)
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Sunday 17 November 2013
l'd better get home and read some books
http://themetapicture.com/how-to-interact-with-the-introverted/
I guess this describes me quite well.
Social is Exhausting.
"l'd better get home and read some books." =)
Saturday 16 November 2013
Just to Express
Many things happened especially when I have to move around, to different places, meeting different people, and to be involved in this real world.
I found that I am not a person suited for this world. I am not a sociable person, in fact I feel uncomfortable when talking to people. But the reality is, social skill is very important in this world.
Somehow 'talking' for a person like me comes with practice, the more you talk to people, the more you can talk. The problem with me is I don't know how to start, or to be more precisely I don't have the will to start too. I feel very uncomfortable when talking to people, I do try to find more topic to share, but my mind will just go blank. One of the reason might be due to my distrust in people, I am not a person who trust someone easily, perhaps I trusted people easily before but was then betrayed, I don't know.
When I look around, I found that I don't have much real friends, and I admit that this is because I don't mix around, and most of the time I refuse to mix around. I rather stay alone and be in my own comfort zone.
Someone told me that I have some mental block and attitude problem, I accept that.
But always I like to think the other way round, why I must change myself to suit the world, why must I always lives under the expectation of other people. (I guess this is the attitude problem that she meant)
I just want to be myself.
Creativity. This is an all-time strange word for me. But as a dietitian-to-be, I have to be creative. I must be creative in suggesting ways to change patient's usual diet intake to a healthier way based on his/her food availability, financial status, and even their preference.
Food. This is another issue. I am never a person who will appreciate the color, texture, aroma, and maybe even taste of food. I am not a person who live to eat. I eat just to survive, and I will not bored of eating the same food everyday. . Most of the people in this world know how to eat better than me, they enjoy good food, and crave for certain food in certain time, know how to search for famous food. But for me, there is no such thing as high or low quality, famous of not famous, nice or not nice food. For me, there is only food that I eat or I don't eat. The food that I eat I can eat everyday, and the simpler the food the better.
But as a student in this course, I have to know and understand all kinds of different food, somemore need to know food outside of my own race, which I found it to be a waste-of-time thing to do. (maybe another attitude problem)
Yes, I know that I have chosen the wrong course (technically half a course) and I am stuck here.
Nevertheless, there a still good point about this course, that is I know how to choose healthy food, and this benefit is lifelong. (this sounds selfish). In fact, I am very much willing to share my knowledge to other people, but due to my problem in communication, some people might feel bored as I talk to them. Or most of the other people want a shortcut way, which I assure you that there is none. Or another problem is due to my lack of creativity, somehow I cannot give a good practical ways.
Beside food, another half of the course is the clinical part of it. And I love clinical very much. And only at this time I regret that I did not choose to study medic. Even though no matter doctor or dietitian also need to be able to talk and socialize, but at least by studying medic I can have my full concentrate on clinical, without any 'food' to bother me. When I talk to other people about this, especially the persons in the same field as me, most of them actually supported me to take medic after I graduated. But in reality, I have already wasted my 4 precious years in this course, to become a MO I need at least another 6-7 years, that time I will be quite old. I really love medic, but I also don't want to graduate at such old age. The struggle inside me is big.
Another road that I can think of is to further study in the area of clinical nutrition. This seems to be a better road. I don't know.
There are other issues.
Everything just seem not right.
Tired. Empty.
I found that I am not a person suited for this world. I am not a sociable person, in fact I feel uncomfortable when talking to people. But the reality is, social skill is very important in this world.
Somehow 'talking' for a person like me comes with practice, the more you talk to people, the more you can talk. The problem with me is I don't know how to start, or to be more precisely I don't have the will to start too. I feel very uncomfortable when talking to people, I do try to find more topic to share, but my mind will just go blank. One of the reason might be due to my distrust in people, I am not a person who trust someone easily, perhaps I trusted people easily before but was then betrayed, I don't know.
When I look around, I found that I don't have much real friends, and I admit that this is because I don't mix around, and most of the time I refuse to mix around. I rather stay alone and be in my own comfort zone.
Someone told me that I have some mental block and attitude problem, I accept that.
But always I like to think the other way round, why I must change myself to suit the world, why must I always lives under the expectation of other people. (I guess this is the attitude problem that she meant)
I just want to be myself.
Creativity. This is an all-time strange word for me. But as a dietitian-to-be, I have to be creative. I must be creative in suggesting ways to change patient's usual diet intake to a healthier way based on his/her food availability, financial status, and even their preference.
Food. This is another issue. I am never a person who will appreciate the color, texture, aroma, and maybe even taste of food. I am not a person who live to eat. I eat just to survive, and I will not bored of eating the same food everyday. . Most of the people in this world know how to eat better than me, they enjoy good food, and crave for certain food in certain time, know how to search for famous food. But for me, there is no such thing as high or low quality, famous of not famous, nice or not nice food. For me, there is only food that I eat or I don't eat. The food that I eat I can eat everyday, and the simpler the food the better.
But as a student in this course, I have to know and understand all kinds of different food, somemore need to know food outside of my own race, which I found it to be a waste-of-time thing to do. (maybe another attitude problem)
Yes, I know that I have chosen the wrong course (technically half a course) and I am stuck here.
Nevertheless, there a still good point about this course, that is I know how to choose healthy food, and this benefit is lifelong. (this sounds selfish). In fact, I am very much willing to share my knowledge to other people, but due to my problem in communication, some people might feel bored as I talk to them. Or most of the other people want a shortcut way, which I assure you that there is none. Or another problem is due to my lack of creativity, somehow I cannot give a good practical ways.
Beside food, another half of the course is the clinical part of it. And I love clinical very much. And only at this time I regret that I did not choose to study medic. Even though no matter doctor or dietitian also need to be able to talk and socialize, but at least by studying medic I can have my full concentrate on clinical, without any 'food' to bother me. When I talk to other people about this, especially the persons in the same field as me, most of them actually supported me to take medic after I graduated. But in reality, I have already wasted my 4 precious years in this course, to become a MO I need at least another 6-7 years, that time I will be quite old. I really love medic, but I also don't want to graduate at such old age. The struggle inside me is big.
Another road that I can think of is to further study in the area of clinical nutrition. This seems to be a better road. I don't know.
There are other issues.
Everything just seem not right.
Tired. Empty.
Friday 1 February 2013
It has been so long
Previous post was on 12th Jun, 2011.
And today is 1st of February, YEAR 2013!!!
That post was the 1st day I step on the land of Sarawak, only Kuching, not sibu yet, not even sarikei (the place that I wanted to visit the most..hehe)
Few hours later I reached Sibu and saw her! We haven't even started yet! That was so long ago man~~
On my 21st birthday, finally I've got the chance to visit Sarikei, with her lovely present and celebration. Thank you once again! =D
Now, I feel that we've been together for so long, she has become the closest person in my life.
We never failed to contact each other, everyday. I must admit that I can't live without her. She is part of my life now.
Although sometimes we had some quarrel, but we soon forgive each other, because what the scripture say: "In your anger do not sin. do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold." (Ephesians 4: 26-27)
And in 1 Corinthians 13:4-8, the definition of love says "Love is patient;.."
Why do apostle Paul use 'patient' as the first word to define love? I guess one of the reason is that all of us are sinners, we aren't perfect, none of the human being in this world is perfect, except Jesus Christ. That is why He CAN die for us, and what we need to do is just BELIEVE that He CAN save us from our sin, from our imperfectness.
I still can't believe that I was in my 1st year of uni life when I wrote the previous post, and now I am in 3rd year. If I were to choose matriculation now I will be doing my final year. Thank God I didn't choose matriculation, if not I might not be able to meet her.
When people ask me how is your course? My standard answer is: I like the clinical part, but do not like the food and cooking part. But I know that God has His own purpose by bringing me here (I met her!)..at least I get to work in the clinical setting (hope that I can get a job in hospital), just from a different perspective, I still can learn about human biology, but I do hope that I can learn in more detail, just like what she is learning. Sometimes I do envy her for her knowledge, which I am so thirst about. But who knows, I might fall in love to all those food stuff one day.
Now I am in my final sem break even though this is only my 5th semester break, because right after my sem 6 I will be going for my posting. The posting will be divided into clinical (inpatient, outpatient, ICU), community and food service area. I am looking forward for the clinical posting. The other 2 just hope that I can enjoy them. I know that I just need to change my attitude: take everything as a learning process and get the max form the process. Because everything that you learn today might be useful in the future.
Yea, the learning attitude. I am having part of it I guess, just need more.
That's all for now. Hope that I will continue writing, although laziness always win. =.=
And today is 1st of February, YEAR 2013!!!
That post was the 1st day I step on the land of Sarawak, only Kuching, not sibu yet, not even sarikei (the place that I wanted to visit the most..hehe)
Few hours later I reached Sibu and saw her! We haven't even started yet! That was so long ago man~~
On my 21st birthday, finally I've got the chance to visit Sarikei, with her lovely present and celebration. Thank you once again! =D
Now, I feel that we've been together for so long, she has become the closest person in my life.
We never failed to contact each other, everyday. I must admit that I can't live without her. She is part of my life now.
Although sometimes we had some quarrel, but we soon forgive each other, because what the scripture say: "In your anger do not sin. do not let the sun go down while you are still angry, and do not give the devil a foothold." (Ephesians 4: 26-27)
And in 1 Corinthians 13:4-8, the definition of love says "Love is patient;.."
Why do apostle Paul use 'patient' as the first word to define love? I guess one of the reason is that all of us are sinners, we aren't perfect, none of the human being in this world is perfect, except Jesus Christ. That is why He CAN die for us, and what we need to do is just BELIEVE that He CAN save us from our sin, from our imperfectness.
I still can't believe that I was in my 1st year of uni life when I wrote the previous post, and now I am in 3rd year. If I were to choose matriculation now I will be doing my final year. Thank God I didn't choose matriculation, if not I might not be able to meet her.
When people ask me how is your course? My standard answer is: I like the clinical part, but do not like the food and cooking part. But I know that God has His own purpose by bringing me here (I met her!)..at least I get to work in the clinical setting (hope that I can get a job in hospital), just from a different perspective, I still can learn about human biology, but I do hope that I can learn in more detail, just like what she is learning. Sometimes I do envy her for her knowledge, which I am so thirst about. But who knows, I might fall in love to all those food stuff one day.
Now I am in my final sem break even though this is only my 5th semester break, because right after my sem 6 I will be going for my posting. The posting will be divided into clinical (inpatient, outpatient, ICU), community and food service area. I am looking forward for the clinical posting. The other 2 just hope that I can enjoy them. I know that I just need to change my attitude: take everything as a learning process and get the max form the process. Because everything that you learn today might be useful in the future.
Yea, the learning attitude. I am having part of it I guess, just need more.
That's all for now. Hope that I will continue writing, although laziness always win. =.=
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